Baby Update

Well it's been a rough month, I'll tell ya.  Nash has taken to waking up on average 4 times a night.  He just can't seem to put himself back to sleep once he wakes up.  And he always cries out, so it's not even like I can let him hang out in there until he figures it out.  The last thing I want to do is to make him fearful that he will be left in the crib. 

That being said, I'm exhausted.  Joe's exhausted.  Nash was napping only 15 minutes at a time (30 at most), so he was taking 4-5 naps a day and then not sleeping well at night.  It was an awful, vicious circle.  I tried just about everything I could think of.  I reread "The No-Cry Sleep Solution,"  I read countless blogs and forums, googled just about every variation of "by baby won't sleep" as I could think of.  And nothing really worked.  I eventually had a meltdown the other day, and since then I have just let go.  It is what it is, as Joe says.  So, I wake up a lot.  And I'm up for good at like 6 am..not fighting for more time...just isn't worth it. 

So I know I said we were starting on the veggies and I would be updating how he was handling everything, but I've since cut out all food, including cereals.  I thought that maybe the introduction of cereal and his sleeping problem occurred at around the same time, so goodbye!  So will wait until at least 5 months before we add those back in.  Hopefully, we will have this sleep schedule figured out by then.

On another note, I took a job today.  It's not a great-paying job or anything, but it's familiar, fun, and damn...it's something.  I need to get out...I need to think and work and organize.  I need to breathe.  I think going back to work will make me a better, happier mama for Nash.  Joe and I just have to figure out the childcare issue.  We are hoping our neighbor's daughter will be available as she used to be a full-time nanny for a newborn.  And since she is right next door, it is so convenient for both of us.  Will keep you posted on how the whole thing pans out.

Workin' Wednesday Post 1

Since it's Wednesday, I need to think about work.  I have been looking for a job for a year now after being in DC for the last two, and it hasn't exactly gone as planned.  I never expected to go a whole year with barely a nibble.  It's really demeaning to think all my hard work in school and professional endeavors (not to mention the time spent sending resumes, maintaining social media sites, updating portfolios) has amounted to nothing.  My $50,000 contribution to Georgetown, which I thought was a surefire way to boost my marketability, has yet to reap any rewards.  Thankfully, I was able to defer my student loan payments since I am on unemployment or else I would be in deep trouble.

So, this morning I went online and applied to two more English teaching jobs here in Brevard.  I started on the teaching path last year when the regular professional world wasn't panning out.  Plus the idea of summer's off and working with kids in a family-friendly profession really looks appealing knowing that I know have a baby.  Plus, it's something I can do here in Melbourne, where there seems to be a shortage of jobs in my field.

So, I applied for an English job at a high school and a temporary position at one of the middle schools.  I think I will put together some formal resume packets this week and fax them out to all the schools I've applied to since the beginning (which is about 8 or so that have had English or Journalism job postings).  Perhaps this will help, since the whole Brevard County School system online thing doesn't seem to elicit much response.

My only concern is that I have never taught before.  Not only that, but it's not like I took education classes in college or anything, so I have no real idea how to create a lesson plan or what material I am supposed to cover or what's the best approach to teaching certain things (I realized my lack of knowledge when I took the certification exam and 50% of the questions centered around teaching skills).  So it's not enough to have a degree and have working in the field...I need to know how to properly teach it to kids.   So it makes me wonder if a school would even hire me with no experience...

Still waiting to hear about a few Orlando jobs that I applied to last week or so...  And need to follow up with the unemployment since something was screwed up the last time I logged in to report my earnings.

As much as I don't want to leave little man, I know I will just be depressed if I don't find a job.  Even if it's just part-time somewhere so that I feel like I'm contributing and I have something to do with myself outside of this house.  Plus it will be nice to socialize and meet people again.  I really hang out with no one these days and that does not help the morale.

Checking Back In

I just realized that I have not blogged in almost a month and so much has happened!  We took a trip up north to see family, pick up the jewelry armoire that my dad made for me, and have our first baby shower.  We had our second ultrasound and found out we're having a boy!  I applied for an exciting job that I really hope I get.  We have completed about 90% of the nursery in the last week alone!  It's been crazy...I have so much to blog about!

25% there

I am currently at about 10.5 weeks so I think it's safe to say I've rounded first.  Nothing too exciting going on in the last week, but still excited to be here!

I still don't have much of anything showing, which is kind of a relief.  I really shouldn't look at pictures of celebrity preggers because then I feel bad about my own human body.  I mean, Gisele can't be human, right?  I recently read a caption in a magazine that said she never wore maternity clothes.  Freakish, I tell you.

Weighty Issues

Today marks the first day I really felt stressed out since this whole pregnancy thing began.  I'm feeling so overwhelmed and under prepared...two things that really suck when put together.

After my talk with Jen about jobs last night, I just feel like such a loser because I don't have a job.  I mean, come on!!  What does a girl have to do!?!?!  I feel so worthless just sitting around not making any money.  And now that we are looking at designing a nursery and buying baby stuff, I just feel worse.

Finally, a Wedding!

So, it's now two weeks after the wedding and we're settling down into married life.

The wedding was fabulous, although not without its hitches. We made it though, and we're officially husband and wife. A family. Hopefully the pictures will come soon, although the photog said 6-8 weeks. :-(

We also had a fabulous honeymoon. Jamaica was everything we hoped it would be and we truly had a blast. I was super sad to leave, but also excited to come home to our normal life. I am excited to make a home and a family...